Today is saturday.the day where you told me Hanson will be doing his singing in Hereen there.Sort of a contest like thing.I set the alarm on Friday night,coz you were soo tired for the entire week not even getting enough sleep and your eyes were red when we met earlier that night.
Today's 8 am came and i called you 4-5 times and dropped you a message.Hoping that you'll wake up and not want you to be late.missing what you've promised Hanson that you'll attend his singing compeition.I went back to slp after that.then you didn't even dropped me a text until i texted you.you replied saying that you were more nervous than hanson himself.I was Jealous.never would i thought that i would be you know.early in the morning and then after that i had errands to run os didn't relplied you so frequent as before.then you asked if i had anything on for today.I didn't want to bother you further coz you were watching that singing thingy.so told you off.I'm sorry!!Then you came texting me that he passed.and therefore unknowingly it added more vinger into me.causing me to hav my mood swings.then all was surpressed till later tonight.where the feeling juz came back.In the evening you called and told me that you got into NTU.I was Happy,Proud and Excited for you.I asked myself"Am i the first who received this news?" or "Hason got this alrdy?? Maybe YOu called Him before you called me" i don't know juz t don't know.but the optimism was far more overcrowding than the pessimism.
Last night when we were on the bus squeezing here and there it suddenly gave me the feeling that we were tgt agn.Don't know why but it juz came.BUT i know i hav to know it's NV real in the first plc.NV REAL and NV WILL.='( Today i discovered that my left ankle was sprained.and i told you.hope that you'll not be bothered or disturbed by it.coz i don't want you to worry abt it.In the evening you randomly texted me saying that you got me a choc on Fri but forgot to passed it to me thus it's melted and you say you got smth for me but don't think i'll like it.To think of it.Have i not liked anything from YOU,Edwin Leo Chang Yu?? HAve i ?

The other night when you called and wanted to tell me that Fri's meeting was cancelled. I'm Sorry really sorry to the bottom of my heart.Promising that it'll be the last time i'll call you darling till we're ever to be tgt.Coz it was also that night that i realised that we are JUZ FRENZ after soo much that we've done.Sleeping,eating,going out,caring etc for each other.Smtimes i juz wonder do you do that to all your gay frens as well.If you really do then i hav nth to say but to back out frm your world of frens.I'm juzt dreamin all along edwin..smtimes why can't they be true for once and lasts forever. Makes me wonder why.......

This morning when i saw your message that Jeremy called you after i put down the phone.Don't know why i became not myself at all.I became another person which i have never ever hope to bring out.But you juzt made me do that unknowingly.Therefore everyone in school is asking if i'm alright or not.They say i don't seem to be Jason,Not the correct person,Are you Jason?,Is there something wrong with you?,Are you ok?. I don't know how to answer them at all.I don't even seem to be able to find any answers to reply them at all.I don't know what's in me today.Maybe is what you've mesged me at 6 am in the morning telling me such stuffs after what i hav told you so much abt me last night.I don't know..I really don'y know..
I'm tired being Jason.Being always so happy,bubbly,optimistic and all..I juzt want to leave all of them wher i left them and want to live this life of being another side of me.Being quiet,silent,decisive on choices that i've been given.
Last Night thankz for taking photos with me.I'll not delete them ever.Hearing that you were sadden bcoz you made two of your frens that you loved angry.Instantly it affected me as well.Also while talking on the phone with you last night made me again woke up from the dream of us being together.and believing in foreverness and eternity.
You know after looking at your mesg this morning it made me realised that maybe letting you go would be the best solution now.To solve the problems that you have you know i'll never mind to help you out in any way.

Luv you still

Last night i was so emotional bcoz you ignored me for such a long while..chatting on the phone over with Cyril..not telling me before that..casusing me to tell shryl and nages that i was emotional for that period.sigh.then you came back and cheered me up by letting my hear the song that you've always loved " You don't have to say you love me"it juzt made me hav another reason to loved you even more.
Today i have a pair of tickets to the preview of the movie "Narnia" . and the first person that i thought of going with was you.But then you juzt can't make it.i was disappointed.Then i thought that i shouldn't be too over possessive over you.and therefore didn't want to ask you futher.

We went out again..

16-17.05.08
This time was second time we spend the night out together.Spending it at the hotel with you again and this time i flared up at you during the movie of Ironman. The time when i asked where are we heading you replied "home" i was freaked up become i thought we've ironed it out that we'll be spending the night together then there you are telling me that you want to head home after the movie you know it just make me angry..I know sometimes you just don't mean it and joking about it but then i hope you'll just carry on with it..I don't mind.. Like what's shown in the movie of "Made of Honour" it was lovely. And once again we spent too much on food.You know that moment when i was just being worried that we are spending too much and my account is drying up so i was in a dilemma to whether to watch a movie or not watch a movie then we go stay in the hotel.That is all..Yeapp..and we got the two tops from Depression i'm really gonna hope that we can put it on next time we go out together..
I was really appreciative that you spend the time walking with me here and there..and trying to avoid my parents in town..
You know i don't dare to say that i nv liked you to pay for the bills..but don't you think it's draining your pocket as well??Darling..please avoid doing this again kayy?!

Thankz to you..I have been listening to this really great song from Jay Chou..and this thanking is not a scarcastic kind but in fact a true genuine type where i really liked it. Ever since getting to know you..i have been starting to listen to chinese songs and it's making me feel like speaking chinese and therefore i wanna thank you again..Your scheme for making me more chinese is starting to show results.. =D
最长的电影歌词
作词：周杰伦　作曲：周杰伦
我们的开始　
是很长的电影
放映了三年　
我票都还留着
冰上的芭蕾　
脑海中还在旋转
望着你　慢慢忘记你
朦胧的时间　
我们溜了多远
冰刀划的　
圈起了谁改变
如果再重来　
会不会稍嫌狼狈
爱是不是不开口才珍贵
再给我两分钟　
让我把记忆结成冰
别融化了眼泪　
你妆都花了要我怎么记得
记得你叫我忘了吧　
记得你叫我忘了吧
你说你会哭　
不是因为在乎

last night you were really really tired..I know you were and wanted to really let you sleep all the way..I shouldn't have woke you up by he phone call at all..Knowing that you'd your session of gym last night becoz you said "u Donwan touch contours" of your body..really made me impressed by how much i can affect you to be able to keep fit. HAHAHAHA..maybe i didn't really did influence THAT much but i think there's a possibility..
Last night though we had like arguments which are mostly because of me and i'm the one who sparks it well i don't know man..after you telling me that " You Luv arguments right??" i sorta kina feel that after having arguments with you it makes me feel more closer to you coz both of us will confess how we feel prior to the situations.and you know through these times it wen i get to know you better each time..


Remember that night when we were talking about our ex-s and how they treated us and vice-versa..Relly made me opened my eyes about something the you and your ex did..and how you will treat your ex really makes me feel like i've fallen another level deeper into love with you..and what i can say is that I Love You.. =)

These are what we both had..Mmmm~..Juz by looking at it again makes me crave for it alrdy..HAHA..=)

The Second another movies time

Going out with you the second time to spend money "wisely"..Has been another unforgettable day that will stay in my memory.Another chapter of "US".When i first saw you in that jacket,it gave me an impression that "Hey..this guy can really do off with just a jacket and without any clothing beneath man ! " Haha..maybe i just revealed how naughty and the horny plus fetish side of me..But who cares..for i'm the only one who reads and types in this blog.. =D Anyway eating with you in HK Cafe was what you wanted on our first date.Haha..you know when we were walking from shops to shops finding a top for you was pretty intentional..because i just wanted to waste some time so that we'll not feel awkward.. not talking to each other..You were keeping pretty quiet yesterday you see..and me being me ..will not know what and how to deal with it..I'm sorry if i wasn't being myself yesterday..I felt bad making you going here and there when we were in HK Cafe having our lunch.Which you made me had some of the half boiled egg..=S I don't seemed to like them at all..But i still had it as it's you who presented me with i didn't mind so i had it..i'm not trying to saY that from now on you can force me to eat whatever thing that i hate or whatsoever.. but ..Baaa~ nvm..
Later that movie we caught was great!! Some of the parts were really hilarious,loving,touchy,cocky some movies that you'll catch when you're stressed up like hell.. Love that mement..
Then we randomly suggest that we shall go to Vivo for a meal or a movie..Hopping into a cab and off we went..
Reaching the place straight to the cinemas we went.Getting the tickets were pretty stressful, deciding the time and what kind of movies they were screening juzt got me unarmed..
The movies this time was really good in a way but with improvements will be better..not to mentioned about the 2 hours and 15 minutes that dragged us into the midnight charges.Taking a cab back home together again was another situation where i always enjoy..Looking at you,Staring at you,Being close with you,Being just beside you and able to touch and feel you..I know if you were to see this you'll prob be grossed to the max till you're dehyrated..
But to tell you the truth deep inside me ilike what i've posted in my previous post that i hoped that we both can stay together where we just hav to be bothered about each other not anyone outside our world. I don't know when will this day will ever arrive but able to dream about it isn't that bad as well too i suppose? =)



That night where we met up for the Pipye ?? Heh..it was really silly for both of us to get the food from Terminal 3 and travel all the way to Terminal 1 just to have a sit on the ground and eat them..I have always thought that such random,riduculous and idotic ideas only i'll be able to dream on it but necer did i know that you survived it thru with me without any major complains..I Really Appreciate It Alot Alot!!

Hmm..Last night..i wished it had never end..hoping that we can stay like that forever not going back to our world of being a manequins and not letting people who we are inside.
I'll never forget how you look like now till forever.Your face has seemed to have been imprinted inside my head.But i'll still want to see you..everyday,every hour,every minute or even seconds.It's been almost 12 hours since we parted from each other.and it seemed like 12 years alrdy.when you said that u're alrdy attached to Hanson last night it shocked me..not alittle but it alomst killed me instantly.Sleeping with you has been my dreamand will always be hope that we'll be doing it not very often but again.you said "Sorry for all the wrong things that have happened and Thanks for all the things that have done" these sentence thought seemed to be simple and contains apologies and thank-yous but to me it seemed to sum up everything that happened last night..*chuckles* watching two different movies in a night with you..i never would have thought it'll ever happened..Never even would i thought that we'll be sleeping together hugging and kissing.You said u are addicted to kissing like me..why didn't you do so yest ?? are you trying to make me crave for more the next time we meet up ?? i wonder..IF ONLY.. I would like to thank you so so so much for what you've done for me last night.for you and me..i hope we'll be together.

With Luvs..